My life be like...

So obviously it's been like forever since I have written on this blog that seriously I forgot that I had it. Okay so I have decided that I am just going to be totally transparent on here!  I seriously need this outlet to express all that I have been feeling and thinking.  I still have my journal, but I haven't been that good about keeping up with it!  Do you ever feel like you just want to scream? Well that's how I have been feeling lately!  And if you do scream than go ahead it's all good.  A good scream every now and then is good for your soul.

I talk about this all the time how patience is a virtue and it definitely is!  I have been in this holding place forever or at least it seems like that!  I mean like seriously how long can a girl wait.  You know when you just know that your life has a purpose and you were created for more, but then why are you just waiting?  I don't have it all figured out yet, all I know that in the midst of my own personal battle I do know that great things are in store for this Girl!!  I know that there is so much to learn in this season. I know that God is challenging me.  My approach has to change.  It's not that I don't believe, but I think He wants to show me something that I have never seen or learned before. 

I think we all come to a point in our life when we have to fight for what we want! For what we believe in.  And sometimes our biggest enemy is our self.  It could be our past failures. What people have said about us.  or even what we believe about our self.  You see for me it's not the fear of failure, but the fear of actually succeeding!  Trust me I am quite familiar with failure.  I know what it is to fail time and time again.  To see your dreams come crashing down right in front of your eyes and there is nothing you can do!  But one thing that I have learned is that the dreams we have for our self don't even compare to the ones God has in store for us.  That's what I'm waiting for.  This is one of my favorite verses that I hold on:

"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,"-Eph 3:20

Never did I imagine that my life would be where I am at today.  I figured by this point I would be married, with a child (maybe), have a house or something and be in my career.  Well obviously none of those happened , yet.  Not married. No kids. No house (I have an apartment) and I'm definitely not a lawyer. Seven years ago my life took a complete turn.  Yes a complete 180! And well that's when this "new" journey began...

This post is already longer than I had anticipated so I'm going to have to cut it short.  If you're wondering why I named my blog "Beautifully Broken," I'll give you the short condensed version, but I think that in our brokenness there is beauty.  I use to think that being broken was a bad thing, but I think that in that state of being broken you find your true self.  The beautiful person you were created to be!  Well I hope you will follow me on this journey that I'm on.  Just to warn you I can be a bit much at times and even a bit all over the place, but I hope from these post you can relate, but also leave encouraged!  So that's a little bit of where I'm at right now.  Until next time I'll leave you with this quote:

Never lose an opportunity of seeing anything beautiful, for beauty is God's handwriting.

-Ralph Waldo Emerson